I am in need of prayer right now. After experiencing two terrible relationships, I met this wonderful man.
Well due to the two past traumatic relationships, I have found that I have some trust issues. Even though the new man in my life has never given me any reason not to trust him.
Long story short, this man means very much to me, and I did something that was quite wrong of me, and was a violation of his privacy. Because of this last night he told me that he wanted to break up for now, and needed time to himself to think things over to see if he could find it in his heart again to trust me and to move on forward with our relationship.
I know it’s a bit trivial to ask for prayer for a relationship in some sense, but he means more to me than I can put into words. Even though it’s only been a month and a half, I do feel very close to him and he is quite important in my life.
If it isn’t too much to ask, could you please pray that he finds in his heart forgiveness towards me and finds it that he does want to continue our relationship?
i doont know what to do anymore. I can't study. I can't think.. Please pray for me. I really am very lost..
Anyone is welcome to friend me. I will accept all comments positive and negative. (Hopefully they will all be positive or constructive) And most importantly, I want to know a way I can pray for each of you.
It's from my personal journal and cross-posted to christianitysex.
From Philip Yancey's The Jesus I Never Knew. which is just amazing me right now:
The more I get to know Jesus, the more impressed I am with what Ivan Karamazov called 'the miracle of restraint.' The miracles Satan suggested, the signs and wonders the Pharisees demanded, the final proofs I yearn for-these would offer no serious obstacle to an omnipotent God. More amazing is his refusal to perform and overwhelm. God's terrible insistence on human freedon is so absolute that he granted us the power to live as though he did not exist, to spit in his face, to crucify him....
I believe God insists on such restraint because no pyrotechnic displays of omnipotence will achieve the response he desires. Although power can force obedience, only love can summon a response of love, which is the one thing God wants from us and the reson he created us.....
....As I survey the rest of Jesus' life, I see that the pattern of restraint established in the desert [during the Temptation] persisted throughout his life. I never sense Jesus twisting a person's arm. Rather, he stated the consequences of a choice, then threw the decision back to the other party. He answered a wealthy man's question with uncompromising words and then let him walk away. Mark pointedly adds this comment: 'Jesus looked at him and loved him.' Jesus had a realistic view of how the world would respond to him: 'Because of the increase of wickedness, the love of most will grow cold.'
....In short, Jesus showed an incredible respect for human freedom."
I can't hear a sermon, read a Christian book, or listen to a Christian song these days without thinking somewhere in the back of my mind: "And where does all this tie in with what I'm sifting through? What does God REALLY think about homosexuality and all the issues tied in with it?"
And I still don't know.
But this passage in particular had me thinking about gay marriage rights.
Would God come down and MANDATE, make into LAW, something that would take away the choice and freedoms that all people should have? After reading that passage above, I'm thinking not. Maybe He disapproves of gay marriage. Or maybe He's shaking His head over the fact that we could still be so cruel as to not grant gay marriage rights. Like I said, I don't know, and I haven't gotten any clear resolution on the subject yet. But the issue here is CHOICE. If you're looking at it from a religious standpoint, a Christian standpoint, God has never taken away our ablity to CHOOSE what we do with our lives. He's honest with us. He shows us what will be good and what will be bad for us. But He never FORCES us.
So why would Christians, who are supposed to represent Him, decide to forcibly take someone's rights away? Isn't that displaying an attitude that's directly oppositional to God's character?
To be honest, this whole idea of God not forcing us to do things is kind of a new one to me. It shouldn't be, but it is. Yancey describes the church he grew up in as being one that very much forced issues, and I can most definitely relate. It's refreshing to be seeing things differently.
I watched you and hoped you would talk to Me,
even if it was just a few words,
asking My opinion or thanking Me for
something good that happened in your life yesterday -
but I noticed you were too busy
trying to find the right outfit to put on
and wear to work.
I waited again.
When you ran around the house getting ready
I knew there would be a few minutes for you to stop and say hello,
but you were too busy.
At one point you had to wait fifteen minutes
with nothing to do except sit in a chair.
Then I saw you spring to your feet.
I thought you wanted to talk to Me
but you ran to the phone and called a friend
to get the latest gossip.
I watched as you went to work
and I waited patiently all day long.
With all your activities
I guess you were too busy
to say anything to Me.
I noticed that before lunch
you looked around,
maybe you felt embarrassed to talk to Me,
that is why you didn't bow your head.
You glanced three or four tables over
and you noticed some of your friends
talking to Me briefly before they ate, but you didn't.
That's okay. There is still more time left,
and I have hope that you will talk to Me...
yet you went home
and it seems as if you had
lots of things to do.
After a few of them were done you turned on the TV,
I don't know if you like TV or not,
just about anything goes there
and you spent a lot of time each day
in front of it,
not thinking about anything -
just enjoying the show.
I waited patiently again
as you watched the TV and ate your meal...
but again you didn't talk to Me.
Bedtime - I guess you felt too tired.
After you said goodnight to your family
you plopped into bed and fell asleep in no time.
because you may not realize
that I am always there for you.
I've got patience
more than you will ever know.
I even want to teach you
how to be patient with others as well.
I love you so much
that I wait everyday for a nod,
prayer or thought or a thankful part of your heart.
It is hard to have a one-sided conversation.
Well you are getting up again and once again I will wait with nothing but love for you hoping that today you will give me some time.
Have a nice day!
It's a little theologically incorrect seeing as God knows the thoughts and intentions of our hearts so He doesn't "guess" about our actions, He already knows. However, it's still a good lesson that we should be aware of His love throughout our day! :-) Have a great day, ladies!
"Well, that's why you aren't feeling close to God... you have too much head knowledge."
"Stop quoting Bible verses and tell me what YOU think."
"It's not a belief, it's an experience."
This is what people have been saying to me about my faith. I would like an opinion from you about how to reply to people who say things like this.
Sorry I haven't posted here in a long time, I've just been busy with stuff, and since school's started, I have to write two pages a day, about (60 pages by midsemester, 125 by the end of the semester,) about anything, and it won't be read, so now that I HAVE to write stuff down to make the "quota" on paper, I LJ less. College is good- I added a political science major to the German, joined a new club, and actually think I might have friends this year. :) How are you all doing?
( the requests...sorry, selfish and long, I know...Collapse )
Otherwise, life is good. :)
I am quite stunned. My question is why'd he do all that? He didnt even have any strange ulterior motive as we'd only held hands. It makes no sense and I hate to say it but I'm more saddened by this than I'll like to admit to him or my other friends.